Orangesyum88

This is hilarious. It's been a long while since anyone has discussed, thought about, or brought him up, but this was recently brought to my attention by a dear friend who used to be a moderator on his server. A few previous moderators approached me to get my side of what happened because they disapproved of the way he was managing his server and his behavior. Finally, an honest individual who is open to hearing both sides of an issue. The server remains the same and continues to play the "I am innocent" and "I did nothing wrong" card. It hasn't been the same ever since he kicked Lamp and me out, burning his server to the ground. Becoming a control freak. He is in a panic. He created a separate room where he and the moderators could only talk crap about us. We are not "scaring" people away from your dead server. You are doing that to yourself. You can try to pretend everything is fine, while you are pissing yourself in fear of your inner circle seeing who you truly are. My friend says your server has been inactive, and shit talking in mod chat as usual. Everyone is treading carefully to not agitate you. While we've moved on and are having fun without any concerns. But keep lying to yourself about how you are "moving forward" and having us living rent-free in your head. You repeat the same phrase over and over and still won't let go. People will learn the truth about you on their own, or listening my side of the story. Maybe this is karma for what you get for being a complete jerk. We were too good for you. Do you know this thing called an apology? Yeah. Maybe owning up to your mistakes like an adult someday.

It's not good for your mental health to spy on other people while spending a lot of time online. I know you ignored my advice 2 months ago, but maybe you should rethink that. Stop deleting your social media like Bluesky and creating new accounts. There's no need for that. I blocked you before and couldn't block you again because you blocked me yourself. What is the point of making a new account? Weird, especially you were inactive on Bluesky.

The full story here from my previous journal.

It's not a good day today. This morning, my beloved cat of 13 years has passed away peacefully in her sleep before my birthday. When she fell sick a month ago, It was a difficult time. My husband and I took care of her, and she recovered quickly. She went to cross the rainbow bridge. And will live on in our hearts forever. You can rest easily, my precious little girl. I will never forget when we adopted you from your horrible previous owners, and fell in love with you and knew right then and there you are going to be our daughter. We know you will be watching us and your brother like the good guard cat you were. Bun Bun 2011-2024 🕊

(Warning, this post will be long.) I sure hate to do this, but I am clearing my name and I'm done staying silent. I advise everyone and all artists to stay away from this individual and his server named Retrospectre Z. I have warned him if he started to talk about me behind my back, which he did, I will expose him for who he truly is as a person. It seems like he doesn't listen and would spy, conspire, and spreading lies. A true individual who doesn't believe in artists or their work. He has bread a server to be an echo chamber for himself. We were close friends at one point, I was a moderator for a year, but the facade fell and he showed his true self. I will be the second artist that he has driven away, and now a third artist has followed suit. A few of his moderators are only there to amplify his control and his voice. I had put my heart and soul into the art and emojis and commissions I have done for his server, to be deemed problematic and "uncultured". He has gone behind my back secretly deleting my work, posts, emojis, and would remove my reaction emotes to troll on me. Meanwhile, he says he requests people to be upfront and honest with him. But he cannot be honest with himself. He would even blame me for removing my boosts from his server, made a friend and mod to spend money to boost his server and lied about the emojis would be deleted and me having the right to remove my emojis and work in my name. The evidence I'm about to share speaks volumes of not only his actions but the moderators too.

He manipulates people to get on his side. He's also a hypocrite and a well-known gossiper who likes to stir drama with people and big YouTubers. Truly does not care about the regular people who join his server and would rather them all be silent. No fun is allowed. He runs his server like a corporate empire. My friend did art as well on the server and was not allowed to upload her art or participate in voice chat due to restrictions on everyone that is not a moderator. He would only give roles to those who aren't problematic or won't get on his nerves to use voice chat. Funny, for someone claiming to be a wholesome community server when he silences the community to his benefit.

To the moderators who said that when I deleted my emojis and claimed some of the emojis weren't mine, is rich coming from them. These emojis belonged to ME. They were MY creations, MY name was on them, and I had every right to remove them from the server and I would not and cannot remove yours. I was the only person in his server who has uploaded and done more contribution than anyone else. Only the server owner can delete emojis or give a moderator permission to remove them. He demoted me as moderator and I was a regular member during the time I removed MY emojis. Also, I'd like to point out that my emojis were NEVER commissioned. I would upload them for FREE and as a request. At times, he would pay pro bono as a thank you for making them for free. I left 3 emojis behind for members who I made as a gift. As Retro said before, we can remove them whenever we wanted to, and before he pushed me out of the server. Here is proof before I deleted my emojis (More proof your emojis would not be removed even losing boosts. They only become inactive.) He had plenty of boosts when I withdrawn mine, and made someone pay for his.

There was a lot more I had made including the animated ones. This screenshot I took were some of the emojis I had left after I noticed most of them were missing that he removed under MY name. If you want to blame someone for YOUR emojis going missing, look to Retro because he hides logs from everyone even the mods because it seems like he doesn't trust anyone, and didn't want me to see his record when he kept removing rooms and emojis. I was demoted as moderator secretly and I had made this decision to remove my emojis and stickers before being kicked from his server, due to unknown reasons.

(My last DM with him being upfront and honest about his behavior and even tried to give him friendly advice and how I still wish him the best. He didn't like my message, that was when he demoted me and my husband and stopped talking to us. When my husband realized we were demoted behind our backs. He made this DM to him. Never once responded. After I removed MY work, he kicked us.)

Never had any issues with any of the mods and that is what is most troubling that NONE of them would stand up and ask for proof or our side of the story blinding following him like a pack of sheep. I made this journal to clear my name and let my voice and my side of the story be heard. If anyone from the server sees this, you should leave the server because YOU ARE EXPENDABLE. He will stab you in the back like he has done to many other people not just me. I have more proof if he or the server retaliate. There is more to this story.

We are not the only ones who he has hurt. He has hurt many people and gets away with it, sweeping it under the rug. He doesn't like me and my husband now because we were the only ones who stood up and telling the truth. I want to point out that he abuses his power as a moderator on every single server he is in. Even big name YouTubers he is in to this day. Without the server owner knowing what he is doing, if he has any beef with people or whom he doesn't get along with or dislike personally, he would ban them on other servers without a reasoning or just coming up with excuses. I just found out recently that a server I wasn't in for a year, because of our fall out, he would purposely ban me and Lamp, many others in the past too because he is afraid I would go to the server owner who I used to work with and expose him. He's also the only moderator who takes things way too seriously, even has told me stories about other moderators and how they were lazy doing their job. Thanks to a friend of ours, he unbanned us from that server. Now all of this is out of the open, I can imagine someone will let the server owner know on what he has been doing.

(A year ago when he banned a person I know personally. It made him angry so he would go out of his way and to ban her without a reason.)

(Him admitting he banned us for no apparent reason other than being afraid of being exposed to the server owner. And using someone else to back him up. The person doesn't know our side of the story and never spoke to us. All he knows is what Retro is telling him.)

(When he joined our friend's server after having left his server multiple times in the past due to his issues with other people. Most likely attempted to become a moderator to get more control. I will be glad to respond to his ridiculous DM. He avoided my friends concern about his actions and never responded to any of them. The moment he secretly stabbed us in the back, he was done with us. It's clear that this will be shared regardless, and he isn't very smart to admit that he banned us without a valid reason on another server. This just points out the fact that he is abusing his moderator privileges, and we're not the only ones. He has a history of banning people and a habit of cutting off communication with people he disagrees with and hiding it rather than dealing with the issue as an adult. He's a hypocrite for creating rooms that benefit him on other servers that he does not own. And I am entitled to have my emojis and stickers removed from his server whether he likes it or not. (Which was why he kicked us in the first place). He lied about everyone blocking him. Lamp did not, but I and a few others did. He left his DMs open just in case Retro would grow up to speak with him and never did. He ignored us and showed us no respect at all.)

In the end, I do regret being friends with him. I should have backed away the moment when he started to gossip about other people. It made me uncomfortable. I'm not by all means perfect, and I had said some things about others that I'm not proud about, but I'm at least I own up to it, I have nothing to hide, I apologized, and I was being manipulated saying negative things to boost his ego. I will never be associated with people like him ever again and trust no one except for my closest friends. All I ever wanted to do was to make art, have fun, be social, post goofy memes, play games together as a community, and support everyone's hobby/career. I will continue to move forward from this, make new content to focus on my art mostly, and help others who are dear to me. No more being in a toxic environment. He has hurt me mentally, giving me crippling anxiety and he did not care for our friendship at the end, and my mental health.

Update: This just proves my point he doesn't appreciate artists and removed my name from the former artist listing and my good friend too. I wasn't going to stay silent on this matter. To the artists who do work for him, be careful doing business with him, just keep it business-related. Of course, he will talk crap and will lie about me and people to newcomers because that's how he truly is. I don't even care how many subscribers I lose because of him and his circle-jerk friends. I will keep uploading and make good content to earn loyal subscribers. He still uses my badges for his membership. I'm not sure if I could report him for not crediting my work, if anyone knows anything on what to do about that, let me know. I created this journal to warn people about him, and I don't want to see anyone else getting hurt.

Dear DA, can we please not insert politics any more on this site? Last time I checked, it was an art website. Keep your damn political agenda to Twitter. I am always silent on these matters and keep my opinions to myself so I wouldn't get backlash, but enough is enough already. I have been on this site for 16 years and it's sad to see the downfall of a website that I have invested for a long time. I don't care if I get flack at this point, I'm getting tired of politics shoving in my face as of late. This website is suppose to be an escape and should be focused mainly on art and literature. Thank you.